Goals and Debt

If I had a nickle for every clearly defined and stable goal I had for myself, I'd be in debt. The truth is that, after four years of college and four attempted majors, I still have no idea what I want to do. When I came into the TCF program I had no aspirations to make films, although it is something I have considered in a broad, vague sense since joining the program. I do have strong opinions and feelings about certain social issues and I feel that maybe I might possibly someday like to make a film about those issues. Someday. Maybe. In the mean time though, my goal is to work somewhere in sports media, particularly in baseball. I love baseball and I like to travel, so I would love to have a job that involves being immersed in baseball and traveling with a team.

That being said, my goals for this course are more about learning the technical aspects of operating in the media industry. How to shoot, how to handle equipment, how to set up, and other things of that sort. What I really hope to gain from this course, if nothing else, is a sense of confidence when it comes to the technical aspects of the media industry. I also wouldn't mind working as a crew member on other people's projects, so having technical skills would be essential in that case as well. And it's not like I'm completely adverse to being a filmmaker. I have stories I'd like to tell and opinions I'd like to put out there, I've just never considered film as the medium for either.

So I guess those are my goals for not only this course, but my life/career in general. Although, as much as I love baseball (and I really love baseball.. it's hard for me to quantify how much I love baseball), I'm already having doubts about that career path and am, at least in the back of my mind, considering something else entirely. Like graduate school and a career in academia or maybe even law school and a career in politics and a more active role in changing/affecting those social issues that I feel strongly about. I don't know how practical that last option is at this point, but it is something I have considered as I enjoy politics. I actually hate politics, but I think that's why I enjoy them, for the prospect of changing them. Maybe that's a little too ambitious and farfetched at this point of my academic life (I can't afford to go to school forever), but I'm going to just hit the Publish button to stop myself from rambling even more than I already have.